Nifty Compensation

Contentment- (n.) happiness with one's situation in life

^That's me. Right now^

It's pretty wonderful, really. Contentment. I don't think I've experienced this state of being in a long time and now that I'm feeling it again, I welcome it with open arms. It gives all the confusion and regrets and heartbreaks and sadness a new meaning, like all the low points and bad days I've had in the past were just preparing me for this, adding up to the absolute satisfaction I'm fortunate enough to have at this point. Maybe for every thousand tears, there's but a moment of pure happiness. And I mean complete contentment- like no matter how out of place and flawed things are in your life, you can feel that it's okay because there is an infinite amount of things to be happy for; you can stand under the cloudy skies and allow the chill of the wind to envelop you, to swallow you whole into its depths and finally take a breath- you're content. You can feel an overall peace of mind and while every thing may not be where you'd like it to be, you are able to accept it and enjoy every second glance, every giggle, and every touch. Everything remains perfect in its imperfection. That's how my life feels right now; I'm so blessed. :)

Even if this serenity lasts just a moment, it makes all the sadness worth it. Maybe I'm just a little too optimistic, or maybe I'm just crazy; either way, it helps me to make sense of all the pain. People learn from their mistakes, right? So perhaps people gain this absolute happiness as a reward (or good karma?) for all the hurt they've endured. Yeah?

Those are my thoughts (or were my thoughts thirty seconds ago)...ha.

So I was planning on making this an ultimate blog- with much more thought and depth and words (and maybe even some smileys and pictures and color!) because the weather is inspiring and I'm in a good mood and the little thoughts and ideas in my mind are flourishing and dancing and itching to make their ways onto paper or on one of these silly little blogs, but it's late and I have to be in my fantastic sexual education class at precisely 7:45am. Let me express my excitement: YAY.

Peace. For real. :)